1. |
Doll Face
02:24
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Spent haunted childhood alone, afraid
Spent adolescence alone, afraid
Growing older now alone, afraid
Soon I’ll close my eyes alone, afraid
Oh what I’d do to kiss those luscious, doll-face lips!
Just one night alone with my calloused hands on your hips
I’m sorry
I’ve said too much
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2. |
Otto and George
04:34
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Torn, split like a lunatic
Watching the movements that make me sick
Venom, it’s haunting, gotta let it out
Venom, it’s daunting, gotta let it out
George sees you for what you are
The world is changing and oh so bizzare
Venom, it’s haunting, gotta let it out
Stoned again, there’s love in my eyes
Only friend, it’s hard to see life
It’s me, it’s me and my head, it’s not just a laugh
For you and your friends
My friend, what’s with you now?
Your head sinks so low, you seem sad and so lonely
My friend, come with me now
We’ll break all the windows and drink until morning
My friend, can you not see?
The promise of heaven is nearing us swiftly
My friend, can you not see?
The strings that made me are the strings that will kill me
My friend, be kind, be honest
The people will tear us limb from limb to sawdust
Pain
It's my biggest fan
So sweet and sad
I want to cure him
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Sometimes,
I feel as though I might just fall
Into the center of your skull
Everyone else seems so dull
There’s a light with your initials on it here
It brings the wonders
Of your world
That eats and breathes and sleeps
In radiance
I wanna find that love again
So much for forgetting you
And I don’t really care
Just where we go from here
As long as we never look back and shame ourselves
As long as we never look with hate
As long as we always promise to move ahead
As long as we always promise to wait
I’m here to wait
For you
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4. |
Flagellationist
02:57
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In my head there’s too much whispering
Tell my baby I’m far from home
Grinning paintings always listening
Tell my baby I’m far from home
I find it hard to speak to these pigs in my cage
Tying chains into figure eights
Moment to moment the ceaseless involvement
With cowards with nothing to say
I wanna escape
I wanna escape
Pulled six nails and counting
I want to escape
Every day
Sweet agony
I try to change
No luck for me
No luck for me
I’ll beg you vapid wraths to face your fate
No savings, no changes
Just when I heard your sweet skin cry
For once I didn’t want to die
Let’s join in the fun, let’s join in the rave
Let’s praise and be grateful for all of this
Pain, it’s my pain
You can’t take that from me
It’s too sacred
And I don’t see any other way
To view the face of the divine
Hate, precious hate
You can’t take that from me
It’s too sacred
And I don’t see any other way
To take up all of my free time
Little specks of dust left
You’ll just have to find me
You seem so kind
Oh please kill me
All alone is all I know
I’m so remorseful
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5. |
Spiraling Pink Glaciers
03:02
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The law
Set fire to us
And this cum-covered couch
You went up state
And I stayed here strung out
White privilege lost
Once black doors were shut
Just a piece of good ass
Just another young slut
Boy toy for sale
Wig not Included
Auctioneers take
Rep and cigarettes
Outside feels dull
Outside is lame
So collect guns
So I locate veins
Sex is for strength
Pain is for addicts
Drinks are for wives
“H” is for half-wits
When I was 12
My mom took me swimming
In a glacier-fed lake
Far from the city
I felt truly loved
No failures in sight
She was drunk on red wine
I was high as a kite
The lucid are scared
Calculating their debts
So they turn to pills
And I fuck them to death
Dread,
It’s the tits,
It’s the shit,
It’s the best
And I can’t tell you all
That eats and crawls
And spins webs in my head
I’m still holding onto dread
Dining and feeding
While everyone’s bleeding
It’s dread
Keep em in check
Keep em abreast
With dread
The law
Shut our sins down
With black kevlar vests
You slept in hell
After your arrest
Three years this month
You sharpen shiv
You held in your tongue
Cause I never forgive
The days stay the same
Predictable world
Still sell to your kids
Still sell to your girl
Benzos in her purse
Oxys and candies
She gets them for free
When she begs on her knees
She knows a thing about
Pleasing a man with higher stature
And violent attributes
Hey, business is business
But it’s power for me
Your girl is afraid
And cowards are prey
Dread,
It’s the tits,
It’s the shit,
It’s the best
And I can’t tell you all
That eats and crawls
And spins webs in my head
I’m still holding onto dread
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6. |
gloryhole
03:40
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7. |
Pond Scum Dumb
04:16
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You are pond scum
You are dead to me
The cellar doors would close
There was nothing there
But cold and damp
And I would box with drunken monsters
8 years old, I’d sleep with garbage
You are pond scum
You reflect no light
20 years have gone by
I've tied you to your favorite chair
And I will watch you die
under my fists
and leak out blood and piss
You are pond scum
You deserve no life
Stepfather
I hear your name
In my dreams
You’re the violent man
This violent man
Is doomed to become
And remain
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8. |
Miserable Michael
09:55
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all we wanted was a place in heaven
all we asked for was to belong
and as we worked for no love
our hands would shake
and as we worked for no one
our backs would break
and after work for so long
we sang and drank
complot
gold lungs breathing lies through a thousand cycles
god
only speaks to himself despite his idols
outside i’m dying as michael
a kind of blind-folded disciple
can you hear the halogen kids sing recitals?
gleaming of high hopes
hugging their rifles
devotion intact
fighting holds of denial
beats us up into creatures
tired of reason
lighting extinction up
the pink kings are sinking
and i’ll go down with the fleet
to a shroud of defeat
gotta barbed-wire crown
i’m so proud of the grief
as i fall to my knees
while i’m gnashing my teeth
i can see truth
through the blood
in my eyes
little pigs went to the market
with severed heads in bags
pedaling their fantasies
buying riches, selling rags
blackening the eyes
of their drunk wives with open palms
dancing on the graves of veterans
and single moms
for angels in the my dreams
sister, mother and niece
i’ll clean the rifle in my closet
my holy, metal piece
i’ll look into their eyes
as they die, soaked in doubt
when the screaming ceases
i’ll place the rifle in my mouth
i was always meant to know
i was always meant for more
i am michael sufferer
blind son of a coke whore
“For the angels”
lies, relentless lies
is all we ever see
hide, go ahead and hide
you scum, you’re never free
there’s a man with a double chin and a silk tie
and that man must die
and so must i
never i knew i was what i despised
until i despised every white under sun and sky
it’s hard to persist when you hate
the very fabric ingrained in your make
the very psalms written into your fate
the very concept of god and state
my folks, my wife, my child
my faith, my kind, and i
“i don’t wanna die
but somehow i feel obliged
i don’t wanna die
but i’m done clinging to life”
and all the signs that keep us defined
and all the prayers, they won’t deliver
only violence will change our minds
only violence will open our eyes
my hands, my heart it’s yours
my tongue, my soul full form
never you were what i admired
until i admired every son of coal and fire
one day you’ll sleep with a smile
knowing all men surrender to light
one day you’ll look to the sky
and you’ll thank my rifle and i
“i don’t wanna die
but somehow i feel obliged
i don’t wanna die
but i’m done clinging life”
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9. |
roddwalsh
10:35
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[transcript]
you're listening to chelsea and the skidmark on mrm's 105.9 philadelphia's home of alternative rock.
*laughter*
hey philadelphia fans. thanks for tuning in to 105.9 this is chelsea and the skidmark in the morning. we're here with singer/songwriter rodd walsh who's promoting his new album. rodd thanks for being here buddy.
yeah man. thanks.
so rodd, give it to me straight. you’re a cali boy. what brings you out to the city of brotherly love?
uh yeah we’re on tour now uh promoting some new stuff. playing some venues. playing some uh festivals. it’s pretty crazy, especially with this bus now. i mean you pass out in time square, you wake up in a radio studio in south philly man it’s nuts.
hah! rock and roll, dude. i mean that’s crazy you gotta grab that bull by the horns and ride it all night long hahaha yeah chelsea knows what i’m talking about.
you just gotta have some drinks and go crazy!
well uh i mean it is crazy i don’t know i think some of us might have a problem. i mean it's just you can’t stop and every day it just gets a little worse…
hahaha so punk rock. it’s awesome! so anyways rodd, what are you promoting here today?
uh well we have a new single out.
what’s it called bruhh?
it’s called i have nothing to say and i’m saying it.
*laughter*
that’s like some frederick mitchem kind of one liner. it’s terrific. i love it.
it’s so cute!
thank you
so who do you hit the road with these days roddy boy?
uh right now i am on tour with free beer and bummer status
mhm mhm yeah solid solid solid bands i mean i’ve actually never heard of them but i’m looking now and they have a ton of followers so they must be doing something right ey todd? haha
it’s actually rodd
whatever
i’m just saying
not more followers than me
so rodd. how’s cali life? i mean just walk me through it a little bit. will ya?
uh it’s great man i mean there's tons of really amazing minds and amazing people out there i have the privilege of working with and the weather is gorgeous and you get to do a lot of..
they legalize gay marriage over there. how do you feel about that whole thing?
uh i think they legalized it here too? uh are you sure you’re not thinking about pot?
hahaha pot! with all due respect rodd. uh you have no idea what you’re talking about..
oh skid mark! leave him alone!
i mean regardless, i think it’s great. two people love each other. they want to spend the rest of their lives together. i think that's great.
but where does it end rodd? i mean.. if i go to california, can i marry a horse? hahahaha i mean. you know what i’m saying??
i don’t think you can marry a horse? no
i know i can’t marry a horse now rodd, okay? what i’m saying is, if a guy can marry a guy and a gal can marry a gal, i mean… soon, a guy can marry a horse and a horse can marry a chicken i mean… it’s just madness, man!
well i think the difference is that if you were to marry a horse, a horse doesn’t know it’s getting married.. i mean it’s a horse. it doesn’t know. you know, the difference is that when two human adults get married, they, you know… they have free will. they're planning that. that's where the distinction is.
i used to ride horses!
so you’re saying i can’t marry horse, rodd? mhm?
well i mean if you can find a horse with sentience and it wants to spend the rest of its life with you i think yeah! by all means, put a ring on it’s hoof and raise yourself a couple of centaurs.
*laughter*
oh this guy! rodd, you literally make me want to go home, drink a bottle of jim beam, drive over to my ex wife’s house, knock on her door, demand for her to have sex with me one last time before i blow my brains out. haha because you’re so god damn perceptive. you’ve got your finger on the pulse, man. it’s crazy.
ohhh skidmark!
i don’t.. i…. i’m so confused
i think what skidmarks really saying is
[silly noises]
ohhhhh reggie put that away!!!
what is going on??
hahaha sorry about that rodd. you’re gonna have to excuse him. that’s reggie the reckless.
he’s as reckless as a mother
i mean…what are you talking about, skidmark? i saw you do that voice. there’s no other guy in here. it’s just you doing that voice in a microphone.
rodd, what are you talking about bro? reggie the reckless is our stuntman. alright? he pulled his dick out. alright?
i mean you’re doing my voice right now..
rodd, what are you saying?
and now i mean there's no one else here
rodd?
it’s just you i mean, i am you….
okay i literally can’t right now.
rodd buddy, did you take a little crazy juice last night? i mean come on. what are you saying?
rodd walsh. rodd walsh..
why do you keep saying your name?
no it’s your name. its your name. rodd walsh. it’s your name. it’s my name. it’s your name. this is us. this is me. we’re doing this right now..
oh god.
okay we need to wake up. we need to wake up now, okay?
rodd, you’re scaring chelsea.
wake up! for god's sake rod! wake up now!
rodd, buddy.. you gotta calm down. chelsea is freaking out man..
got it.. igot it.. whos chelsea? who’s chelsea? who is she? who is she?
she’s my friend.
she’s your sister god damn it! she’s your sister. she’s your sister.
oh yeah..
today’s her birthday. okay? it made you really upset. why did it make you upset rodd?
uh
she died rodd. she died in a car crash.. okay? she died two years ago, okay?
oh yeah…
do you remember anything about that night?
uh… i was driving?
okay. do you remember anything else?
um… i was high?
yeah. you were high, rodd. because of that you blame yourself. for two years. it wasn’t your fault and you both know that.
don’t say it! don’t say it!
nooo!
it wasn’t your fault. okay?
noo!
today was her birthday. alright? do you remember what happened?
no!
okay. you stayed home from work. you called out sick.
don’t say it! don’t say it!
you tried to kill yourself.
ohhhhh
you tried to kill yourself.
you need to wake up. you need to wake up, rodd.
come on rodd. wake up or you’ll die. we don’t want to die. come on rodd. wake up! wake up right now!
we’ll be right back with more chelsea and skidmark in the morning after these messages.
this program is brought to you by seretarol keep that shit inside where it belongs
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10. |
Wet Brain
05:16
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I cried unto the lord
On train tracks I soared
but couldn’t ignore
the pain was worse than before
The weight of your hurt
Is taking me over
And dragging me closer
To fear
The drink in your eyes
The colorless demise
Is killing you finally
My dear
You’ll drown trying
To find someway
To feel
And I am tired
of grief that I
can’t heal
And you might hate me just the same
But I refuse to dig your grave
If you would just stop giving up
And living in your shame
you would be great
The world it greys
The world it greys
The mind it frays
as you become consumed
but I will not stay
And I have spent three years
Trying to help you find your way
And forgive your mistakes
But you will always love me less
Than the poison in your veins
That fuels your wet brain
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11. |
Fluffers
04:41
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Heaven’s more real
Than my hometown appeal
California, marijuana, fear
Came here in search
Of honesty and work
Truth and boldness
Artistry sincere
He buys me a drink
Ill-attempted wink
Sits in his own smirk
Arrogant cheer
As I sharpened my knives
All you fluffers and wives
You obliged
Oh I despise
Your safety
And diamonds
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12. |
Late Ease, Whim In
07:01
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Oh Bacchus, oh Bacchus
Who is toasting to you tonight?
Ignore the ceaseless tension
To whose party are you giving life?
Oh my queen of wine
Ease your control of my smile
How fallow is your earth?
Plant the yards of royals
Flung my fresh start
Right out of the window
Watched it spread its roots
with someone new
Oh lady, oh lady Brett
In whose bed tonight do you slumber?
Here while I face the glass
Consider future without past
Drink deeply, careless drunk
Cause steer life ain’t so swell in fact
Pamplona’s driving me to wonder
How to reach my sun and back
Flung my fresh start
out the goddamn window
Watched it spread its roots
with someone new
Oh Elaine oh Elaine
Can’t we go away for awhile?
Flee your mother’s buzzing breath
And her sweet, seductive guile
Oh Elaine Oh Elaine
I feel like a son robbed
Daydreamin' in the sun
Floating in a cesspool of desire
Flung my fresh start
out the fucking window
Watched it spread its roots
with someone new
Oh my god,
watched him dance with execution
“bed went sailing off”,
But I smashed snooze ‘til it was dark
Spite repeating cauchemars
Fly away but don't go on a lark
Isn’t it pretty to think how
Things could be if we chose with our hearts?
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13. |
#feardeath
07:40
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Satire of youtube "comedy" channels. Yes it takes a bit of a dark turn
Cast:
Dan Avery (Drug & alcohol counselor and doctor of behavioral medicine): Max
Tyler: (Co-host of "Boshinmashhhhhhhhhh.....herrrrp"): Heath
Kyle:(Co-host of "Boshinmashhhhhhhhh......herrrrp"); Tony
Announcer: It's time for another episode of Boshinmashhhhhhhhhh.....herrrrp!
Crazy sound bites (distortion, drone)
Relaxing jazz piano
Piano fades
Tyler: And that's why I don't understand why people are scared of ghosts, cause like if you see a ghost, a real ghost of a dead person, you know what that means? It means there's life after death there isn't just infinite blackness, that's fucking beautiful. If you see a ghost you should fuckin' leap in the air with joy because you and everyone you love has a spirit that survives after death. That's amazing.
Kyle: Oh my god #afterlife, #thereishope, #Nietzchewaswrong #undyingsoulofman #beautifuluniverse, #ghostsaredope
Tyler: #Dopecity
Kyle: #ThinkBig
Tyler: #NofearDeath
Kyle: #
Avery: Guys please, can you just please explain to me what's going on?
Tyler: Haha okay bro, sorry can't help all this big time stoner talk
Kyle: #PotTalk
Tyler: This is actually why you're here. So as of late our subs have been talkin' some smack sayin' we puff too much dank
Kyle: #PurpClouds
Tyler: And we thought cuz we got a lot more monz now
Kyle: #CashinChecks
Tyler: We'd bring in a prof and get that quality evaluation, nahm sayin'?
Kyle: #ProfLife
Avery: You want me to give you consultation?
Tyler: Yeah bro, but first give us some deets, what's yer name? what's your background? how did you get here? Come on
Kyle: #Deetsbrah
Avery: Okay look, boys. I'd be more than willing to give you both a professional evaluation. I just don't feel comfortable having all of these microphones and cameras on. I think we should reschedule. If you're really worried you should come to my office, it's only about a 20 minute drive from here. This is a private matter, I don't know why you would even want to record this
Tyler: Brah, we just paid you 6 gs to come in here and give us some prof consult, catch 23 is that we gotta upload it to our webblog. Now you wanna take the money and stay for a few min or you wanna bounce?
Kyle: #Perspective
Avery: ...... *sighs* okay so you think you might be smoking an unhealthy amount of marijuana?
Kyle: No brah, we just smoke on the reg, and our fans usually love watching us smoke some dank, but then @traceyRayMay45 was all like "you guys smoke too much smh", and then @MikeScooter002 was all like "the only too much is none at all" and then Tyler and I were like "lol", but then @theRealLindsayLove was like "you guys should see a shrink", and @theRealLindsayLove does not shit post, you know what I mean? So Tyler and I were like "we should totes get a prof in here and get him to give us the GL on the ganj so we can upload it and show our subs that we all good here" and so that's why we called you #lifegoals
Tyler: So first give us the deets, who you be? where you from? what's your sign? deets, brah
Avery: Alright well... my name is Daniel Avery, I run a private practice in behavioral therapy, which specializes in drug and alcohol abuse treatment options.
Tyler: More deets brah, where you from? How did you start?
Kyle: #authenticMuch?
Avery: Well I was born and raised in Wayne Pennsylvania, I did my bachelor's at Rutgers University in New Brunswick, New Jersey
Kyle + Tyler: Oooooh DAYYYUMMM!
Tyler: Rutgers, couldn't cut in the big leagues, DA?
Avery: I take it you're not a fan of Rutgers
Tyler: Both me and Kye-Kye, Wharton class of 2015, 13.9% acceptance rate, Ivy League dream baby!
Kyle: #winners
Avery: Well that's fantastic boys, your parents must be very proud. That's a great school.
Kyle: #businessBeBoomin
Tyler: TD is a Wharton alum, let that speak for itself
Avery: Ah... TD?
Kyle: #Trumpster #Billionaire
Avery: Oh Donald Trump, yes well he's a very successful guy
Tyler: Look if you don't like TD, DA I totes get that vibe, but you can't deny my man be stacking piles of dollas, OH!
Kyle: #NineZeros
Avery: Well he has declared corporate bankruptcy
Tyler: Yo Kye-Kye, how much is my man TD worth? pull it up on the googs
Kyle: #Networth #4.5bill
Tyler: Numbers don't lie, DA, ya feel?
Avery: Let's discuss your smoking habits
Tyler: Bro to be totes honest, if you're a Rutgers grad, I don't think you can give some Wharton alums some prof consult. You know no offense, but it's like a homeless man tellin' you how to invest your money
Kyle: #sotrue
Avery: Ah okay well I do have an MD, I have a PhD and I currently run my own private practice, but if you don't want my "prof consult", then I can just "bounce"
Kyle: #butthurt
Tyler: #Crymuch?
Kyle: #passiveAggressive
Tyler: #PussyBoy
Kyle: #LittleRutgersBoy
*** This is where Avery starts to speak in a darker, yet still very calm voice"
Avery: If one of you says hashtag again I'm going to skin you alive
Kyle: Woah aight DA, we'll cool it with the HTs, #Spaz
Avery: I want you boys to do me a favor, would you both please look at this lens? Yes that's it look right in here. What do you see boys?
Tyler: int i == 0; i < 9; i++
Kyle: #public#void#ft#endloop
Tyler: var system.out.print LN "compile error 20751"
Kyle: while( i > 0) { var++; system.out.print(value is equal to "space" var value)
Avery: I'm gonna let you boys in on a little secret, you're the worst little rats I've ever had in this cage. You've been down here so long, in front of these fucking computers, there's really not much left of either of you. Not that there was much left to begin with.
Tyler: #output.var.system.in
Avery: You're ruining my clinical trials, but at least I've identified some side-effects.
Kyle: i < -9
Tyler: i++
Kyle: i < -9
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Tyler: i++
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14. |
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Sway my soul
Cause my heart is impartial
To your cold and lonesome approach
One day I’ll die
In a fire in the sky
And I’ll live forever
Through songs of tireless might
That scream through the ages
Enduring the changes of time
The world’s still unfolding
Call your boy
I hope he’s holding
I’d like to sink into euphoric lies
And self-demise
with no speech till magnesium arrives
Fuck the patterns of abuse
This rope aint thick enough to entertain a noose
You’d rather smoke rocks
And skip stones off skidrow
With liars, jokes, and droves of beggars
Hopeless anger
Tunneling through swollen vessels
Kiss the ground,
The voyages brought hypnotic misery
Three cheers for thee!
Oh wholesome creature
The cold will eat ya
Your time will come
Remember her warm skin?
You pierced it with your agonizing pleas of revival
Read your mortgage, read your bible
It’s gone
Trust in the voices of heavenly grace
And lift up your bones from this land laid to waste
Ghosts in your hallways
Ghosts in your mirror
Ghosts in your eyelids
They speak much clearer
Praise! Praise! Praise!
We’re changing
We’re changing
No pain, no pain, no pain
Burn all the mountains
Burn all the seas
And all of you cunts
You’ll burn with me
Burn all the cities
Burn all the skies
Burn all the priests
Who’ve been spreading their lies!
Jump in our ashes
Now jump in our ashes
Come swim inside this darkened carbon mine
The world needs changing
And angelic babies
Cross into the afterlife and
Leave them all behind
You, you’re all the same
Calculating, calculating, little grains of fame
It's sad I can't help, but laugh
The past becomes black and all we ever see is wrath
A child buried in the sand
I tried to get help, but I could barely stand
Empathy was all i had
Empathy for no reason
And in my head there's nothing wrong..
I hold onto little strengths of life
Chasing all the faculties inside
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15. |
Anhedonia
04:04
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Sun melts the snow
Rain falls from overcast glow
It’s how everyday goes
And here you are
Here we are
Floating
With hooks in our backs
We put them there
Just to feel anything
Just to feel anything at all
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16. |
Empathy
02:26
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